hello :]

hey there. so like its the first time with this type of program. :]
anyways.... its like i have soo much to write and then i have nothing to write at all. i have everything buzzing around in my head but no way for it to flow to my fingers onto the keyboard. i leave and come back to the computer just to type up one blog.and yet things still never get written down. maybe I'm to scared, or just too nervous to do anything about it. and then i wonder how everybody can think of one thing that's happening in a photo or a drawing, we each have been given a voice why not use it? I'm real sick and tired of all the stupids of the world, putting it nicely, because i personally don't think its right to judge someone because of who they are and who they like, its their own choice their own voice and own feelings that are messed around and tossed all in different direction like a ball in softball or basket ball and even football. those ball my be the dirtiest and most worn out but those are the ones that are most beautiful in my eyes. it show that they are tough enough to deal with everything that other people put them through. it shows how strong the human body and mentality really is. and going to church especially the Tahoe retreats.... you realize just how lucky we are to have such close friends who will stay with you through the hardest time of straightening out ones mind and becoming once again stable with the outside world. the human life is an very hard road to journey on. and i wish everybody luck, because you know as much as i do that luck and smarts will get us through the hardest parts in life.

that's all for today, ill try to do this once a week or once or twice a day, when ever i feel like talking i guess :] au revoir